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“Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you
by the gazelles and by the does of the field:
Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.”
Songs of Songs 2:7
These words seem to always be on my mind and in my heart. The Holy Spirit has the tendency to constantly remind me of them. The woman, ‘Beloved,’ repeats these words three times. Three times the Lord charges us: “Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.”
I have been earnestly walking with the Lord, for four years now; and, this December, marked my four year journey as a single woman. The toughest part of these four years has been my patience or my willingness to obey the Lord with matters of my heart.
You see, we may be eager to fall in love but we have to be very careful on this path. This is why when I write to you ladies, I always encourage you to set your eyes forward on the face of Jesus. Only then will our thoughts and our longings be aligned with His and we will find intimate protection.
“He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge.”
Psalm 91:4
This has been a struggle for me in the past. When someone begins to tug at the strings of my heart, my mind quickly gets distracted by the butterflies in my tummy, and the words God speaks into my heart become slightly drowned out by feelings. I then begin to head down a path I have no business being on.
As I type this I remember conversations I’ve had with God. I began to fall for someone, and I told Him, “This has to be the right time, the right person. I delight in you God and you said when I do, you will fulfill the desires of my heart. So I’m going to just go with the flow.” But, going with the flow wasn’t really going with the flow and as he pursued me, I pursued him. I began to leave God in the back seat a little bit. A majority of my prayers began to be solely focused on him. I would randomly smile as I thought of him. Most of my thoughts were of him. I was arousing love before it so desired as I permitted my heart to escape.The end of the story is that everything quickly faded and my heart was broken.
When God spoke these words to us, He knew that our hearts would run away with desires. He spends so much time nurturing us, healing us, and guarding us do you think He would entrust our heart to just any man? Absolutely Not! Our hearts remain protected by the feathers of His wings and He will not permit any damage to come to us. We are His darling girls and He adores us.
“Like a lily among thorns is my darling among the maidens.”
Songs of Songs 2:2
So ladies during this season protect your hearts and do not let yourselves stray too quickly with your emotions. Let the Father first speak these words, “Yes, my beloved, this man is worthy.” Until then, “Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you…Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.”
I went through those lonely nights that, for lack of a better description, just suck. I was sad. I threw myself at God’s feet; I cried; I told Him I know He is supposed to be my everything, but I didn’t feel that. I was brutally honest with Him and with myself. I finally admitted that I do long to have someone in my life. You might be reading this thinking, “Sonia, come on now!” But these feelings are uncommon to me. Vulnerability is a new language for me. I’ve always been guarded and I suppose without realizing I became guarded even to myself. I never realized how much I desired to have someone to love. All these feelings began stirring in me.
How good and faithful and sweet is our God!!!
We get the butterflies in our tummy…I know I sound like a little girl saying all this but let’s be serious, young or old we still feel this way when someone begins to tug at our hearts.
